Now

Welcome to Scatter Joy!
Now is never smooth, it is what it is. Life doesn't have to be pressed smooth. Life doesn't have to be straight to have value. I don't need to know everything that is ahead to be calm. In fact, I am quite sure that there is no true looking ahead, only now, looking in, in order to look out.
When I feel I need things to be calm or content, I am not calm nor content. When I need space to be me, I have no space to be me, in my thoughts. When I need quiet to write, I am not quiet to write. I have what I think I need every wrinkly moment.
It flows around me, comfortable and loose. Who needs more than peace? You have it in your mind. You, sometimes, just choose discord. Fighting what is around you, is fighting yourself. Greeting the world with clarity and understanding is greeting yourself with clarity and understanding. Your decisions will be glorious when you understand and don't fight the wrinkles in life.
Wayne Dyer wrote in You'll See It When You Believe It, "The universe does not forgive because the universe does not blame" (248). He states, "This is how blame works in us, and why it is a futile and destructive activity. As long as we blame others for the way we feel today, we will have to wait for them to change before we can grow out of our current immobilized state"(252).
Art is everywhere. You do not need to wait to see it at a museum or a smooth, polished, gallery. The table you sit at, the pencil you hold, everything around you is someone's "now" moment of creativity. Don't wait for the smooth days, make everyday a "now" day.
Wrinkles in life are not to be judged or blamed. The perception that life needs to be smooth to be peaceful negates your potential. Life and art becomes more interesting with the twists and wrinkles.
"However mean your life is, meet it, and live it; do not shun and call it hard names. It is not as bad as you are thinking. It looks poorest when you are richest! The fault finder will find faults even in Paradise. Love your life."
--Henry David Thoreau